Even When I Doubt Myself, God Still Believes in Me

 
            The other night, I was up until 2 in the morning finishing my study session for my biology class and wrapping up my homework for my biostatistics class. I sat at my desk, tired and craving coffee, and began to wonder if all of this hard work was worth it. What if I work hard and still don’t get my dream job? For those of you who do not know me, I am majoring in biology and pursuing a pre dental program. The amount of kids that apply each year to dental school is three times the size of the kids that get accepted. It is a very difficult field but I have never met a dentist who said that all the hard work was not worth it. As I’ve been nervous about the percent of kids who get accepted, I often wondered if I was even good enough. But then I remember that God knows me, and He knows what I am capable of. He would never give me the desire for a career I could never achieve.

            Everyone knows that hard work is required for dreams to come true. Nothing comes easy. If you’re a sports fan, think about this. In 2012, it was recorded that across America, there were 1.2 million boys who participated in playing on a high school football team. In America, there are 110 colleges that offer a football program. The average college will have about 55 team members on a football team, at maximum. That is only 6,050 people participating in college football which is a huge jump from the 1.2 million playing in high school. For those who want to go on and play professional football, there are only 3,500 players that get drafted a year. And even after being drafted, the players will continue to have to prove themselves or they could easily be cut from the team and lose their dream of playing professional football. Looking at these statistics, if you were to want to play professional football, the odds seem to be against you. But God is not.

            God knew His plan for you way before He created you. He knew the desires that would be in your heart and the love you would have for certain things. He wants you to succeed but that doesn’t mean you’re not going to be tested. If you want something, you’re going to have to work for it. You’re going to have to fight for it. And most importantly, you have to believe in yourself. You can do anything you believe you can do. The biggest obstacle you will face is your own self holding you back because, subconsciously, you are trying to protect yourself from any hurt or harm you might have to feel. It is never going to be easy. But it will be worth it.


Here is the thing. There is always going to be someone who is smarter than you, who is more athletic than you, who is more creative than you, or who expresses themselves with words better than you ever could. But if you have more want and will for something, you’re going to come out on top. If you believe in yourself and continue to work hard, you’re going to beat the person who relied on their talent instead of practice and hard work. Understand that you can do anything because God is on your side. And He wants you to succeed. There are going to be moments where you doubt yourself and God’s plan for you. But even when I am losing faith in myself, God still believes in me. And that is what makes me continue to pursue my dreams.