Why Can't God Save Me?

In my metaphysics class this passed semester, we proved the existence of God. And for the first time in my life, I couldn’t escape the reality that God is 100% real. And while that should have brought me joy and comfort, I realized that now I had to understand there is a great God that exists and yet there is so much devastation and bad things in this world. But if God did exist, which I proved He did, then how could He possibly allow all of these bad things to happen? And why was I blessed with so much while the girl next to me is suffering and barely hanging in there?

The movie ‘The Passion of the Christ’ shows the story of Jesus being crucified. And there is one part of the movie that every time I watch it, it feels like someone is stabbing my already broken heart. The part that I am talking about is when Jesus is being hung and he screams out ‘why’ to God right before he asks God to forgive the people because they do not know what they are doing. Every time I see that, I ask myself, in that moment why couldn’t God save Him? Of course, we all know now, after the situation, that Jesus had to die in order to save us. But in that moment, I have to wonder if people who believed in Jesus and loved him asked the same question but had to trust God and God’s plan.

We go through a similar situation every day. It is not as extreme or important as Jesus dying to save us all, but we go through painful experiences for a reason that are not always explainable. And sometimes we will cry out to God and ask why us, why can’t He step in and help us? If He is so good, why is there so much bad in the world? However, we don’t know the ending to our own story. We don’t know why we must go through all the bad things, and sometimes it seems like we are having to go through it for no reason. But there is a reason for every single situation we go through.

We are never going to enjoy having to go through a crisis. While knowing God has a plan for us despite the situations we may be going through, it is never going to ease the anxiety and pain within us. But these things happen for a reason. Whether that reason is to teach us, prepare us, or make us stronger, everything that happens is necessary. I know it is hard to believe that especially when people are dying from diseases we do not yet have cures for or when people are still treating each other so cruelly. But we have to trust God, we have to trust that there is a plan. But most importantly, we must continue to do good. Even when everything is pushing against us, we must get up and fight back. We may go through unthinkable things and we may not understand why now, but we can never give up on ourselves and our purpose no matter what purpose you believe is. We don’t know exactly how we are contributing to God’s plan, but that shouldn’t stop us from doing what we were meant to do.